Nearly his birthday …

Our biggest little man has been really ill for the past couple of days and it turns out that it’s tonsillitis 😢.

I can’t imagine what it’s like to have that as a toddler as it’s horrendous enough when you are an adult and you have it.

x. He's been a right little trooper throughout and still keeps giving us smiles every now and again. He's on antibiotics now from the doctor and these seem to making him a little perkier but it's awful watching your little ones being ill isn't it? I slept in his bed with him last night (well, I say slept but pretty much just led and watched him most of the night) and I could see how uncomfortable he was and I kept wishing I could make it all better for him.

I’m just hoping that he’s going to be better for Monday as it’s his birthday!

I cannot believe he is going to be 3… where has that time gone?

I cannot believe that nearly 3 years ago today, our little Tasmanian Devil was about to make his appearance and change our world for the better. I’m not sure Leo will ever understand what he did for his daddy and I when he became our little rainbow 🌈.

In the run up to Leo’s Birthday this coming Monday, I’m running a competition courtesy of B for Balloons in Stockport.u can win a choice of 1 of 11 animal balloons, like the one in the photo below.

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1. You have a choice to choose 1 of 11 animal designs.

2. You must be able to pick up from one of 2 B for Balloon stores either in Hazel Grove or Shaw Heath

3. No monetary exchange

4. Must agree to photograph publicity as a winner

5. You must pay a visit to B for Balloon Facebook page to enter

6. Ends midnight 19/02/2018

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Valentine’s Day

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Many of you today will have received chocolates, flowers, underwear, possibly an engagement ring and many other things that you happen to love. Many others won’t have received anything as they don’t conform to the annual romantic celebrations and others will still be waiting on that special someone to celebrate next year.

But do you really know why this romantic day actually exists?

The truth is, is that nobody actually knows the exact story of how it came about although it is thought to be about the tragic fate of St.Valentine who was said to have been killed around 269 C.E. for marrying couples in Rome when it wasn’t allowed.

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Due to the romantic connection of why he was killed, this led to be him becoming the patron saint of love. It was actually centuries later when the 14th of February became Valentine’s Day and an extremely long time until it became the commercialism event that we see today leading to us handing each other among other things cards, roses and chocolates.

But … then there was apparently another man called Valentine too (just to confuse things a little) and he was killed too! There are also the stories about it being a Roman Pagan festival that Christians condemned.

So, as you can see – it’s all a little confusing isn’t it and I’m struggling to understand why we would celebrate it if it’s to do with men being killed! Hmm, so my take on it is this …

If you love someone, whether it be your boyfriend, wife, children then tell them every day … not just when the adverts tell you too. 💕

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I wonder what ?

There are many things that I struggle with dealing with the loss of my children, in particular Millie. With the baby that we miscarried, I don’t seem to have the same struggles, I have different struggles, like never knowing what they would even look like when they were born or seeing what colour eyes they would have.

I think maybe this is because we didn’t know whether the baby was a boy or girl. We gave the baby a unisex name because of this and it still breaks my heart when I think of our loss with this baby. Don’t get me wrong, I know that all types of baby/pregnancy loss are horrendous because you start to plan your baby’s future as soon as you see that positive line but for me with Millie it’s different because she had been with us here for 9 months and one of the biggest struggles that I have is not seeing her grow up.

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Now I know that seems a really obvious thing to say but it’s the little things that many people take for granted when you have children.

Would she like having plaits in her hair?

What would her voice sound like?

How tall would she be?

Would she like wearing dresses or be a total Tomboy living in jeans and getting covered on dirt like I was?

Would she have her daddy’s smile or would she sleep the same way he does?

Would she like going to the football with him at the weekends?

This seems to hit me the most when it’s around her birthday and not long after her birthday this year, my mum passed me some photos.

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Many of them made me laugh, photos of her on her wedding day, of my Auntie (yes, you Auntie Linz 😀) as a very young girl but then I came across some of me when I was small. What was odd though, is that these random photos that my mum had brought over were of me when I was 6, the same age that Millie would have been this year.

My mum hadn’t even looked on the back of the photos and seen the age, she’d just picked a few up to show me …

Strange isn’t it that this is the one I saw?

Do your children look like you or have the same mannerisms? I would love to know what you have in common, it’s such a beautiful thing that our children look like us and often act like us.

If like us, you have angels, what is it that you imagine them to be like?


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One Fit Mama

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I know that many of the mums reading this will be able to relate to not having the time or energy to exercise.  Some mums are lucky enough to get to the gym 5 times a week but in reality for a mum who has young children, a lack of sleep, no help with the housework and all the cooking to do, it’s hard, it’s really hard.

I recently came across a fitness DVD called “One Fit Mama”, I was intrigued when I read that it featured real mums and wanted to know more.

The DVD has been developed by Sophia Cooper who founded One Fit Mama in 2010 after she herself suffered from Post Natal Depression and as many of you know, there are many studies proving that exercise helps your mental health and I for one I truly believe that exercise does help when you are having a tough time emotionally. Sophia wanted to support mums on their journeys to healthier minds and bodies.

The DVD is suitable from 6 weeks postnatal and is split into sections with a fab warm up section that really gets your heart rate going before you start your main workout. For you main section, you can choose to do one of the following;

  • 6-12 weeks
  • 3-6 months
  • 6 months plus

When I started this DVD, I fell into the first section and I’m now a few weeks into the second section and I really am enjoying it. It will be a few months more before I get into the final section of the DVD but I am sure that I will enjoy it just as much.

Sophia gives a warm and friendly introduction to the DVD and explains what will happen in each section thoroughly.

The great thing about all these sections are that they are only 10 minutes long, so if you only have 10 minutes to spare, you can do the other section later on in the day. The main workout section is split into 3 different levels, which you can move on with throughout your postnatal journey, as you and your baby get stronger.

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There is obviously a warm down section to ensure that you don’t have any unnecessary aches and pains and there is also an optional section that you can do to concentrate on your abs/core that is based on Pilate moves. I really enjoyed that section and I wasn’t actually sure that I was going to because in my pregnancy with Asher, I suffered from Diastasis Recti (split abdominal muscles) which affected my back too, apparently around two thirds of women suffer from this condition especially when they have had more than one child. I was very surprised to see that I didn’t seem to have any discomfort when doing these exercises. I was very pleased with this as it gave me a little more confidence that enabled me try the harder moves in the DVD.

So when did I fit this DVD in with two under threes at home? Many of you know that Leo doesn’t sleep at all during the day and hasn’t done for me for about 18 months, so I knew he was going to be awake but I didn’t know what he was going to be like when doing it, keep reading, that was interesting. Asher does take naps, no longer than about 45 minutes at a time, which gives me just enough time to complete the DVD.

With Asher sleeping, I took on the DVD! With Leo happily amusing himself, I started to enjoy it. You don’t really need any special equipment, you can use an exercise mat if you need to and Sophia does use small dumbbells in some sections, but if you haven’t got these, you can use tins of beans! Leo found this highly amusing and started to copy mummy lifting the tins of beans up and down himself.  It was so cute. As long as he was happy and laughing, this made me feel like I could carry on and not feel as guilty for taking some time to do something that I needed to do for myself.

I really enjoyed following Sophia during the DVD and what made it lovely was the way that she spoke and laughed with the girls doing the DVD with her; it made it feel like they were right there in the living room with you. The best thing about this DVD was that it really was real mums in the DVD, real mums of all different sizes that are at different stages of their post natal journeys.

Sophia is keen to remind you throughout the DVD to ensure that you are following the correct person if you have just had a baby, I think is very helpful to remind mums that they need to take it easy and not worry about aiming too high when they first start the DVD, there’s plenty of time to get to where you want to be, slowly and safely.

I couldn’t stop laughing at Sophia constantly reminding you about your pelvic floor, I think she secretly throws that in to make you laugh so you can be tested on how strong yours is! On a serious note though, it is a good idea to ensure that you are doing these specific exercises on a regular basis, especially when you have had a baby (or three)!

So if you want a real down to earth, feel good front room fitness DVD that makes you work hard and that you can have done all before the baby wakes up, this is the one for you.

The DVD has been released in conjunction with the success of One Fit Mama Fitness Classes where you can take your baby with you, there are lots of locations in the UK. Click here to find out if there is one near you.  I am especially pleased to see that they have made it to Stockport and I am very much looking forward to starting them in March, if you are local to myself and want to take a look at our local Facebook page, you can see it here.

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I have a One Fit Mama DVD to give away, courtesy os One Fit Mama Stockport. All you have to do is head back to my Facebook Page by clicking here and tell me by reading the blog what Leo used to lift up and down that made me laugh whilst I working out.

 And now for the boring stuff…

The competition will run until midday on Saturday 3rd Feb and the winner will be contacted later that day.

  1. The winner will have 72 hours from the announcement to claim the prize or a new winner will be chosen.
  2. The prize is a copy of the One Fit Mama DVD and is not exchangeable for cash.
  3. Open to UK residents aged 16 and over and excluding relatives of @millieleosmum and One Fit Mama employees and their families.
  4. Entries must be received on Facebook
  5. Winner will be notified as an announcement on the Facebook Blog Page for Same Person Different Me and a private message to their Facebook account.

By participating in this competition, entrants confirm that they have read, understood and agree to be bound by these terms and conditions.

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Happy 6th Birthday Millie

Dear Millie,

Happy birthday darling, today you should be 6.

We wish that you could taste your birthday cake.

We wish that you could play with the doll that we would have bought you.

We wish that could chase the balloons around like your crazy brother does.

We wish that we could dress you in a little party dress for your birthday party.

We wish that we could invite all your school friends around to our house to spend your special day with you.

We wish that you could read to us what we have written in your birthday card.

We wish that we could see your excited face when you jump out of bed on your birthday and realise that it’s your birthday and you have got even more presents, even though Christmas was only a few weeks ago.

Millie, our darling Millie, We cannot wish anymore, it hurts too much when they don’t come true.

Love you forever and a day, happy birthday little lady,

Love your broken hearted mummy and daddy xxx

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It’s here again

I’ve had a cracking headache for three days now, it just won’t go away.

I know why I’ve got it. It’s Millie’s birthday tomorrow. She should be 6…

Sometimes I think that the day before is almost harder than the actual day itself.

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It absolutely breaks my heart to be running around buying things for her birthday, things that we don’t want to buy her but do.

Flowers, so many flowers. I don’t know what else to get. At least we can make her sleeping place extra pretty for her.

Stressing out if people have remembered our baby girl’s birthday or whether she’s become a fading memory to people and nobody will visit her except us tomorrow.

I stood in Clinton’s today for the 6th year running, crying trying to pick her birthday card.

We choose teddies that are wrapped in cellophane to keep the rain out.

I picked up balloons that she’s never going to get to run around playing with in front of us like Leo does, laughing and smiling.

My heart is broken this evening.

I’m broken.

Give your babies an extra hug this evening.


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Christmas 2017

I cannot believe that Christmas is over for another year. Our tree is already down, I’m not a Scrooge, honestly, as soon as the day is over, I’m always ready to take it down.

The only part of the decorations that I do smile at is of course our special little star…

Christmas is still always really hard for us for obvious reasons but Leo was amazed by everything this year and that really helped us. He started to understand whom Father Christmas is and that he brought presents (although he didn’t understand the nice and naughty explanation that we kept giving him 😂). Leo also managed to leave Father Christmas his yearly Amaretto this year, he also got chocolate cake and a carrot for Rudolph!

Leo left him a special key to get in our house as we don’t have a chimney for him to come down. Do many people have chimneys for the big man himself to get down? < i>< i> Little man was a extremely excited when he woke up and opened his stocking in our bedroom and then he couldn’t wait to get downstairs. It was really hard watching him run in the living getting all excited as I was so happy watching him but so sad that we never got to see Millie get that excited, or for that matter, even experience her first Christmas.

I think it’s always going to be like that, it’s definitely different now we have Leo to watch and in the coming years, Asher too. (By the way, it’s seriously hard to shop for presents for a 9 week old baby – especially when they have a big brother who has everything to hand down to him 😒, I did feel a little guilty).

But Asher seemed to enjoy the day too …

We even managed to get a half decent photo of us all (thanks to a fancy new gadget that Dan and I got for Christmas) and of course it featured all 5 of us.

Asher’s leg is not on a funny angle by the way, it’s an optical illusion (zoom in). 😀

Leo was so excited and didn’t know which toy to play with next. He literally flitted from jigsaw to book to his new pencils all day and didn’t stop. One of the hardest things I find at Christmas is not being able to shop and buy for Millie’s presents, well not presents that she should be getting at her age, instead her presents are flowers and candles for her resting place. These aren’t presents for a 5 year old.

We decided to have beef this year as an alternative as neither Dan or myself actually like turkey and I don’t understand why we even feel pressured to eat it, it’s not like anyone is watching us 🙈! Anyway… the beef was AMAZING, it fell to pieces after leaving it in the slow cooker on high for 6 and a half hours cooling in Diet Coke, (I know, sounds odd – but honestly, give it a try) accompanied by the usual veg and some cracking Yorkshire Puddings (thanks Vikki for the recipe and method for these, best I’ve ever made!) This was All eaten with some lovely Slimming World Gravy that I made using Sweet Potatoes! Apart from the Yorkshire Puddings, it was all Syn Free 😀😀😀! If you want to follow my Slimming World journey that I’ve started, follow me here on Instagram.

Then there is the other side to what should be our happy times. Here is our alternative Christmas photograph, the one that no parent wants…

This is the sixth year that we’ve spent part of our day with our Millie at her sleeping place. We always make it look beautiful and appreciate everyone that visits our baby girl at this special time of the year. The lovely Jay at B for Balloons did Mills a special Father Christmas balloon that matched the one that Leo & Asher had at home. We duplicated a couple of other things too that we had at home, it makes us feel like we are together even more.

As you can see, over the past 6 Christmas Days, we have found certain ways to include and honour Millie as it’s what she deserves. I am sure that many others of you who have lost children do many similar things and every one is special and unique to you.

I’ve yet to find the best way for us to remember the baby that we miscarried last year on special days, I’ve not quite figured that one out yet. If you have sadly lost a pregnancy and you do special things on special days, let me know in the comments section and maybe I can get some ideas.

We truly hope that you have enjoyed your Christmas and our hearts are truly with those who have a similar empty chair to ours at Christmas xxx

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