It’s the sixth time!

Every day we are hit with news of how bad people are, how one person has hurt another and we often think what is actually going on with with us humans?

I wish that the news programmes/sites would share much more good news than they do and talk more about how caring and kind humanity can be and often for nothing in return.

Take this for example.

In October 2012, we lost our little girl Millie. Fast forward 12 months and we’ve set a charity up in her memory and a local hair salon contacts us and tells us that they are planning a fundraiser – a fabulous one at that… they wanted to do a full 24 hour fundraiser where they worked from 12pm one day until 12pm the day after, a full 24 hours and all donations came to Millie’s Trust.

We didn’t know this lady (she’s called Vikki by the way), we hadn’t met her, we hadn’t even spoken to her and she decided that she wanted to do something in Millie’s name.

This is Vikki, say hi!

As it happened, Dan and I had already booked a week away when she had planned it, so we couldn’t attend – but we paid a visit on a return to say thank you.

Roll on the year after and she contacts us again … they want to do it again … unreal!

How amazing though

Here we are now, 6 years down the line and tonight they are taking on the sixth 24 hour fundraiser on behalf of Millie’s Trust and finally I have been able to do the full 24 hours with them. (I’ve always wanted to do this but every year after the first holiday one I’ve either been ill in pregnancy, pregnant or just about to have a baby)!

So here I am with them, watching them work hard with hair, selling raffle tickets, talking to people about us etc and it’s fabulous. They work so hard together and a lot of these girls have been here since the first one 6 years ago. πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

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You can still give us a call and pop in during the night for a quick appointment (no chemical treatments) or just pop in for some raffle tickets! (There are some amazing prizes).

What a fantastic feeling it is for us, that they keep coming back, they keep fundraising, they keep creating awareness for us and they keep choosing to support Millie’s Trust, that’s amazing.

The equivalent fundraiser by these lovely ladies last year raised enough money to train over 800 children – fantastic for them to see what we were using their fundraising to do.

V12 Hair Boutique are not only amazing fundraisers, they are amazing hairdressers … so much so, this is where I have now been coming for over 2 years! Check out my lovely hair!

So, if you got a few spare pennies, please text VIKK12 Β£3 to 70070 .

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Nearly there again

You know when something is driving you completely crazy and you just cannot get it out of your mind? I’m feeling a little like that at the moment and the emotions my head are going through are absolutely heartbreaking.

Asher is 8 months old

Millie passed away at 9 months.

This is totally messing with me at the moment. I keep spontaneously bursting into tears at random reminders.

I struggled a lot when Leo was the same age but this time I have realised that I am struggling even more and I think that it might be because Asher looks so much more like Millie than Leo ever did.

Sometimes I look at him and it’s like having Millie sat in front of me, it’s the strangest feeling ever.

Millie was 286 days old when she passed away… we just need to get passed that many days and I know I will start to feel a little better. I know exactly what date Asher’s 287th day will be; I know, I sound like a crazy lady but I worked it out when he was born and then haven’t really thought about it until he turned 8 months old a couple of weeks ago.

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I know it sounds ridiculous but it’s like a barrier for me, a wall that I need to break us through.

I think I’m doing okay and then something starts to niggle at me and I can’t work it out. Then bang, there it is – the answer that has taken me a while to figure out and this is what has happened over the last few days, it’s hit me like a brick wall.

I’ve gotten through these feelings and mixed up emotions once before with Leo – this time, I can see that there will be a positive outcome at the end and I’m glad that this time I can see past that date.

I’d love to know your feelings about how you dealt with this with your children, how you got passed that milestone with your younger children when an older child had passed away, maybe I won’t feel as nuts as I do reading about your journeys xxx

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A civil case

We’ve got a little bit of news to share with you and it’s with a very emotional heart that we have decided to share this with you.

Following Millie’s Inquest ending in December 2013, Dan and I decided to pursue a civil case over what happened to Millie. We decided to keep this from the public because it was private to Dan and I as a family. To be honest, even very few family and friends know that we have been doing this, so this will be a little shock to some of those reading this.

Many people thought that we stopped everything after the Inquest but we didn’t as we wanted to feel as though we achieved a little bit of justice about what happened to Millie and to feel that we fought for her, we know as parents that you will no doubt understand this.

Unfortunately we will never know exactly what happened to Millie that day and as a parent that is completely heart breaking. What we do know is that we dropped of our perfectly healthy precious daughter at Ramillies Hall Nursery to be looked after, and never saw her alive again.

We have decided the time is right now to talk because the civil proceedings have been going on for many years behind closed doors now and unfortunately we are now heading towards a trial in the summer of this year.

As Millie’s parents we genuinely believe that more could have been done for Millie when she started to choke on her lunch and we will never stop believing that. We believe that Millie received minimal first aid treatment from the staff at the nursery and she was then held and given no CPR before the ambulance arrived.

Dan and I sadly watched CCTV footage of Millie being taken to the ambulance, footage that the jury at the Coroner’s Inquest didn’t get to see. On this CCTV, to Dan and I, Millie looks like a rag doll and we believe that before this point that Millie should have been receiving CPR as she had symptoms of not breathing normally at this point.

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Throughout the years that we have been pursuing the civil case, we have often been in positions where we have felt pressurised to drop Millie’s case and believe me, we have been so depressed about it all that at some stages we nearly have; but we pulled through and fought our own mental health illnesses to continue for our Millie.

We have continually felt as though the nursery had a lack of respect for us as a family, starting with the fact that they chose to keep the nursery open the day after Millie died there, as though it was business as usual and we have had to have the police involved to stop relatives of staff working there spreading rumours about Millie the day she passed away and us as a family.

This is one of the hardest things that we have ever had to write about in a long time because we never thought that we would talk about it but with the impending public trial- we feel it’s the right time for us.

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We would like to thank you all for your support to us since Millie passed away and we hope to continue to have your support going forward.

Joanne & Dan Thompson (Millie’s mummy & daddy) xxx

With thanks to Rozita Hussain Solicitors.

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Loving the snow!

I know a lot of people don’t like the snow because it disrupts the work/school day but I love it. I always have. I know you might think that I’m odd, I love the cold wintry days and can’t wait for snowy days to come every year – and they don’t, they just never come.

The last time that we got snow like this was just as I got together with Dan, my husband – that was 8 years ago, I had to cancel a date because I was snowed in. πŸ˜‚

There are so many things that I want to do with my children, so many things that I want to show them. My love for snow is one of the things that I want them to see.

Something so simple, so free and so fun. I hope they grow up to love it like I do and love playing in the snow together as they get older.

But it’s one of the things that I never got to show Millie, it’s one thing that she never got to see – and that hurts. The pain that hits me when I teach or show my other children things that I never got to with Millie, is indescribable, there are just no words for it … I could try to describe it but there there are just none that I can think of that can communicate the feeling and the thoughts strong enough.

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So that’s why this morning, at 7.30am – when I had been waiting for an hour (I’m surprised that I lasted that long to be honest, I was like an excited child when I opened the curtains) for him to get up, I went in and poked Leo and told him that we could go and play in the snow! (Yes Dan, I woke him up – and I’m not sorry 😘, love you 😘)

Before Dan had even finished his shower, I had Leo up, dressed, fed with his wellies, all-in-one and coat on! I don’t think Dan knew what was going on – or he thought that I had gone a little mad!

But look how excited his little face was πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™

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Dan’s breakfast was ready for him and then I sorted myself out for the weather outside and Dan and Asher were soon ready for the snow too πŸ˜‹.

Within a few minutes, we were out in the white stuff and watching Leo’s face brought tears to my eyes and I couldn’t stop thinking that I hope that Millie is sat on her cloud watching us and laughing at us, being cheeky and throwing some extra snow down for us.

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(I bought the sledge weeks ago, the last time that we were supposed to get good snow – and we got none!)

I totally know full well that I annoy people on social media when it snows, I annoy all those people that end up late for work or school, the ones that are wet when they get to work and the ones that only like the sun and heat … but am I sorry?

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Nope, not one little bit – because I get to show my children something that I love … and something that still actually makes mummy truly smile … which only a few things do nowadays. So if the snow allows my children to have lovely memories and photographs of mummy smiling through their childhood – bring it on πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•.

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I wonder what ?

There are many things that I struggle with dealing with the loss of my children, in particular Millie. With the baby that we miscarried, I don’t seem to have the same struggles, I have different struggles, like never knowing what they would even look like when they were born or seeing what colour eyes they would have.

I think maybe this is because we didn’t know whether the baby was a boy or girl. We gave the baby a unisex name because of this and it still breaks my heart when I think of our loss with this baby. Don’t get me wrong, I know that all types of baby/pregnancy loss are horrendous because you start to plan your baby’s future as soon as you see that positive line but for me with Millie it’s different because she had been with us here for 9 months and one of the biggest struggles that I have is not seeing her grow up.

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Now I know that seems a really obvious thing to say but it’s the little things that many people take for granted when you have children.

Would she like having plaits in her hair?

What would her voice sound like?

How tall would she be?

Would she like wearing dresses or be a total Tomboy living in jeans and getting covered on dirt like I was?

Would she have her daddy’s smile or would she sleep the same way he does?

Would she like going to the football with him at the weekends?

This seems to hit me the most when it’s around her birthday and not long after her birthday this year, my mum passed me some photos.

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Many of them made me laugh, photos of her on her wedding day, of my Auntie (yes, you Auntie Linz πŸ˜€) as a very young girl but then I came across some of me when I was small. What was odd though, is that these random photos that my mum had brought over were of me when I was 6, the same age that Millie would have been this year.

My mum hadn’t even looked on the back of the photos and seen the age, she’d just picked a few up to show me …

Strange isn’t it that this is the one I saw?

Do your children look like you or have the same mannerisms? I would love to know what you have in common, it’s such a beautiful thing that our children look like us and often act like us.

If like us, you have angels, what is it that you imagine them to be like?

x

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It’s here again

I’ve had a cracking headache for three days now, it just won’t go away.

I know why I’ve got it. It’s Millie’s birthday tomorrow. She should be 6…

Sometimes I think that the day before is almost harder than the actual day itself.

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It absolutely breaks my heart to be running around buying things for her birthday, things that we don’t want to buy her but do.

Flowers, so many flowers. I don’t know what else to get. At least we can make her sleeping place extra pretty for her.

Stressing out if people have remembered our baby girl’s birthday or whether she’s become a fading memory to people and nobody will visit her except us tomorrow.

I stood in Clinton’s today for the 6th year running, crying trying to pick her birthday card.

We choose teddies that are wrapped in cellophane to keep the rain out.

I picked up balloons that she’s never going to get to run around playing with in front of us like Leo does, laughing and smiling.

My heart is broken this evening.

I’m broken.

Give your babies an extra hug this evening.

xxx

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Christmas Eve

Twas the night before Christmas …

Presents wrapped, Reindeer dust scattered, vegetables peeled, meat ready for the slow cooker and a key left for Father Christmas to be able to get into our house.

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Candles lit, decorations left and flowers ready for Millie’s resting place tomorrow.

Always two sides to our Christmas…

And Mummy daddy are absolutely shattered and on the Amaretto and Quality Street already!

Merry Christmas everyone 🀣

Let’s see what tomorrow brings, x

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