Be nice to everyone. You don’t know what is going on with them.
Unfortunately mental health illnesses aren’t physical, so you can’t see someone suffering … until something happens or they decide to tell you.
We become good at hiding our thoughts.
We become good at hiding our feelings.
We become good at pretending to be something we aren’t.
Even from those that we love.
It’s what we do to get through our day.
Today, 10th October 2016 is world mental health day and I couldn’t let it pass without writing a little blog this evening.
I’m not scared of talking about what mental health problems I suffer from and I really wish that everyone in the world could talk open and honestly about it, but we can’t or we don’t because it’s considered a taboo subject, one of many that seem to be taboo in our lives.
I suffer from depression.
I suffer from anxiety.
I suffer from PTSD.
I suffer from panic attacks.
I go to the gym.
I go to the cinema.
I curl up in bed hoping it’s all been a horrendous dream.
I become a recluse and don’t like to spend time with people.
Like many other people, I go from one extreme to the the other. I cry. I laugh. I smile. I scream. I have a good day. I have a bad day. It’s a constant cycle and although I know that I am out of the worst of what I was to go through, I know that in my heart I will always suffer from these illnesses one way or another.
I have triggers. I can be having a good day and then I see a blue flashing light flying down the street and the flashbacks will start and my day will end with me just wanting to go home and go to bed and have the day end. I have other triggers that can make me stand in a street frozen to the spot bawling my eyes out for 10 minutes before getting on with my day again.
What I am trying to say is that when you have these illnesses, you never know what type of day you are going to wake up and have.
Having made plans with friends, I’ve often felt a complete let down and awful friend when I have had to cancel because I’ve had a breakdown and couldn’t cope with doing whatever we had planned.
Luckily, my close and real friends completely understand why I have to sometimes drop out of pre-arranged plans or change it for another time because they take the time to understand what I suffer from and remind me that I’m not a bad friend and that changing plans don’t normally matter.
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But actually making plans nowadays is a complete triumph because 3 years ago when I was in an extremely bad place, I wouldn’t even make plans. And if you are reading this now and you know that you don’t make plans, I hope that you can see your future and I hope that I can help you to realise that one day you will make plans again… even if you have to cancel and rearrange – it doesn’t matter.
No one wants to have a mental health illness, many people never think they will never suffer from this type of illness.
I certainly didn’t think that I would.
The only problem being is that I had no idea what life had planned to throw in my path, a challenge that I was either going to come out of or one that was going to end my life. Luckily, I was able to access medical help, I worked hard to help myself get through this horrendous time and I have had amazing support from friends and family. I’ve lost many friends on the way that were unable to understand my situation or even that they did not know how to even speak to me. To be honest, just a simple hello would have done some days and many times we didn’t even get that.
If you suffer from mental health illnesses, talk about it. If you can find the courage deep down inside of you, that we all have – you may just help someone else who is suffering in silence.
If you have a friend who you have thought of whilst reading this blog. Drop them a text, say hi, tell them that you were thinking of them and you might just make them smile at the end of a bad day.
Do it now. Text whoever you are thinking of.